Hello.
It has been a while.
If you didn’t delete this (because you thought it was spam or you just lost interest in waiting for me), thank you for being here.
My life has taken me in many dizzying directions lately, and I have felt as though I have been navigating without a compass in the stormiest of seas…lost and unfound. This made me think outside of myself, and wonder how many of you, kind readers, must feel the same way. Perhaps your path in life feels unclear like a dense fog has blocked you, or perhaps you went down the wrong path and you are struggling to find your way back to yourself. Whatever it is, it is valid no matter the weight of it.
I want you to know that I care.
I do.
Life takes bravery.
There are people I love dearly who have been through heartbreaking events in their lives, and I don’t know if I ever gave them the credit they deserve for just staying above water while in the eye of the hurricane. We endure, we wear brave smiles, take beautiful pictures, and share silly emojis, watch dog videos…and it takes courage each and every day to just show up.
Wiser people will tell you that when life is hard, just hold on because it will get better. It is hard to see that when you are frozen in time, especially if, like me, your feelings are BIG and ANNOYING!! Haha…if you know me, you know me. We have to have faith that the warriors who battled before us know what they are talking about. That is why we go to therapy, join support groups, or call someone we hardly know who has been through something similar and ask them out for coffee and advice. Battles are fought every day in every way. Some people are fighting for their lives, their love, their souls, their innocence, and their faith….and we look to the ones who bear the scars of battle to take our hand and lead us down the path with all our tears and anxiety, until the sun starts to shine through again.
I have incredible friends. I hope you are blessed with that gift. You need people who will show up to jump in the garbage dumpster and free you from yourself and those darn banana peels you keep slipping on.
I am supremely blessed in that department. (m.n.a.a) …you know who you are xo
The point of this posting is not to talk about things that are my own to hold and ponder but to let you know that I know I am not alone, and that each of you has something that is weighing on you, no matter how big or small. I see you. I am sending much love to you, and I hope you keep fighting because spring is almost here; birds will be singing, the sun will be shining, and crickets will be …well..doing whatever they do..lol.
Big giant hugs from me and Lucy …or Lucy and I …whatever…you would think I know since I am a writer…right?
xoxoxo
Michelle Lee St.Onge
...oh she loves to steal my socks!!!! especially ones with her on them !!